This Sucks!

We Really Blew It!

Disappointment.

That’s the word.

It’s the only one that fits

this hollow ache

I’m carrying as I come to terms

with the aftermath

of this whole FWB thang

or whatever you want to call it.

What I know for sure

is that I’m letting go of someone

who has meant so much to me

throughout my life

~ and it hurts.

This person

wasn’t just a passing phase

or a casual connection.

He was woven into my memories,

my heart,

my dreams of the future.

It Really Sucks!

But somehow,

in the middle of life’s chaos,

other relationships, and the responsibilities of daily life,

we neglected our friendship.

That was the beginning of the end.

I believe we

became physical at the worst possible time

~ when life wasn’t stable for either of us.

The timing was off,

the emotions were tangled,

and the foundation we once had

seemed to have crumbled

under the weight of unmet expectations

and unclear boundaries.

And now?

Now

I’m left to grieve

not just the relationship,

but the dreams I built around it.

The imagined futures,

the “what ifs,”

the hope for something more

~ they’re all gone.

Here’s the thing about dreams:

they’re beautiful,

but

they can also betray you.

We 'Dreamers' need to remember

BALANCE

Our dreams

build us up

and give us hope.

We must be careful

that when reality doesn’t match,

we don't allow

ourselves to feel like

the world is about to come crashing down.

We own our dreams

~ Our Dreams ~

don't own us.

It’s not easy.

It's not just

about letting go of the person

~ it’s about releasing the life you thought you’d have with them.

It’s about forgiving yourself for trying,

even when

the odds were stacked against you.

As I sit with this sadness,

I realize something:

even though it’s hard,

it’s necessary.

Letting go of someone doesn’t erase their significance in your life.

It doesn’t undo the memories

or the lessons

they’ve given you.

But it does free you

to move forward

~ wiser.

So,

here’s to the dreams 🥂

we dared to dream

and the strength it takes to release them. 🕊️

Sometimes,

loving yourself

means mourning

what could have been

and finding peace

in what is.

Reina Dee 🌿