Finding Peace 🕊️

Finding My Peace

With

My First Love

The

man

I still love.

The

man

I will always love.

It’s funny

when I think about it.

I’ve always

had a lot

to say

about women

who put up with

all kinds

of nonsense

from

their significant others.

I’d shake my head,

roll my eyes,

and wonder

out loud

why

they wouldn’t

just

walk away.

I mean,

how hard could it be?

But life

has this way

of humbling you,

doesn’t it?

Walking away

isn’t

as simple

as it

may sound.

And even

if you manage to do it

~

pack up

your things,

change your number,

tell yourself you’re done

~ it doesn’t mean

it’s over

in your heart.

It doesn't mean

you'll have

peace.🕊️

You can’t just walk away from love.

Love

comes from

somewhere deep.

Its source

is something beyond us,

something bigger.

The Bible

says that

“God is love,”

and

I believe that.

The source

of true love

is our Creator,

our Heavenly Father

Jehovah God.

So maybe

it makes sense

that when

we love deeply,

it doesn’t just disappear,

even when

the relationship does.

That’s where

I’m at

with

My First Love.

I hit him up on Facebook,

hoping

…

hoping for what, exactly?

A chance

to rekindle what we had?

Maybe.

Maybe just to know he’s okay,

to remind myself

of the way I used to feel.

Or

maybe

to chase the dream

that we

could be together

again

one day.

Do I regret it?

Not at all.

I don’t

regret reaching out.

I don’t

regret seeing him again.

And I don’t regret

the love I still feel,

because love ~ real love

~ always leaves you

better

for the experience.

But

here’s the thing.

As much as

I’ll always

carry that love

in my heart,

I’ve realized that

I can’t live in the past.

Dreams and hopes

are beautiful,

yes.

But

I’ve come to understand

that God knows

what’s best for me,

even when

I don’t.

If He’s

not giving me

My First Love

for forever,

then I have to

trust that

He has someone

else in mind for me.

Someone

who is

ready.

Someone

who is

willing

to love me

now,

in the present.

Letting go

isn’t about forgetting.

It’s about making room

~ room for the blessings,

the love,

and the life

that’s waiting for you.

So

while

My First Love

will always be

a part of me,

I’m ready.

Ready

to embrace what

Jehovah has planned,

knowing

that His plans

are always for my good.

And that?

That gives me peace.

Reina Dee🌿